So I am definitely starting to feel a lot better than last week. I learned a lot about myself Friday night during the race. It was a great race because the neighborhood that puts it on pretty much throws a big party to cheer on the runners. I mean like every five houses you pass a party. People are sitting outside with noisemakers cheering you on. Four miles is a lot for me and I started to think it would never end. I have always thought if I enter a race, that would mean I would have to run the whole thing without stopping. I thought that if I even stopped to walk once then I had failed my goal. I finally realized after this race that it was o.k. to stop and walk and catch my breath every once in a while and that I was not failing or cheating myself. After the week I had I could have easily not have gone. But I went and did my best. And even better I am continuing the running group.
15 people are training for the half marathon. That is not something I want to accomplish at this point in my life. There are four of us who will have modified runs at the same time (we will only run between 3 - 5 miles). I am definitely o.k. with that. It gets me out of bed at 5:15 in the morning knowing that others are getting up also to meet me. I may be at the back of the group (and a block back) but that is o.k. I am getting up and doing it and that is all that matters.
My husband has given me a little nutrition help on what he thinks will help with weight loss. So plain oatmeal in the morning, and chicken and vegetables for both lunch and dinner. This is very hard for me. I like chicken but eating it all the time is hard. He did this diet when had to lose weight for his bodybuilding competition and the weight fell off of him. He is convinced it will work for me. I will try it our for a couple of weeks to see how well it works. All I know is that I have lost 2 pounds I think. My scale may be lying.
Anyway I manage to lose control over my personal checking acct. and had to give all control of money to my husband. This is the hardest thing! I used to be able to buy whatever and whenever. Now I am on an allowance and it is no fun! That means I need to stay away from Target for a bit since I can not go in and buy just one thing. Hopefully I will learn that I don't need to spend every dime I have just because it is there and that I have to learn to spread the money out for my neccessities like gas. wish me luck!
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Friday, September 18, 2009
So I haven't been myself lately. I don't know how I got into this funk but I am there. I haven't been this depressed in several years. I can't seem to think any postive thoughts. I cry at the drop of a hat. I am just really unhappy with myself. I know that I need to make some changes but not sure where to start. I know I have a lot to think about and I am not to good at this soul searching stuff. My 4 mile race is tonight and I am a little fearful of how I will do. I fear that I will fail. Sorry for such a downer of a post, I just needed to get that off my chest.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Monday, September 7, 2009
What a day it has been! I am drained. My poor baby girl Maggie Mae passed away this morning. She has been sick for a while and these past to days had been really bad for her. This morning my husband and I took her to the vet to stop all the pain and suffering.=(
I miss you tons already!