So I haven't been myself lately. I don't know how I got into this funk but I am there. I haven't been this depressed in several years. I can't seem to think any postive thoughts. I cry at the drop of a hat. I am just really unhappy with myself. I know that I need to make some changes but not sure where to start. I know I have a lot to think about and I am not to good at this soul searching stuff. My 4 mile race is tonight and I am a little fearful of how I will do. I fear that I will fail. Sorry for such a downer of a post, I just needed to get that off my chest.